There was a time when I believed that if my grief became lighter, my love for Josh somehow became smaller. I never would have said those words out loud, but somewhere deep inside, that’s what I believed. Because when someone you love dies, the pain can become the only thing that still feels connected to them. It becomes the thread you hold onto. And the thought of that thread becoming thinner can feel frightening. After Josh died unexpectedly, just nine months after our weddi